The Unconquerable Soul

Though one should conquer a thousand times a thousand men in battle, he who conquers his own self, is the greatest of all conquerors! ~ Gautama Buddha

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

On the go...

Blogworld, it's been a mighty long time since I've shared anything with you. I've been moving forward fast and I had to write about my adjusting to my new found influence, power, breaking point, stress level and money. (no i ain't rich, but got some more dough coming in, lol)

Last year was monumental for me. It set the tone for my future. All of my major goals 0were accomplished, which was accompanied by great pain and confusion. I had several low points that I prayed up to God and the blessing came down, truly more than I deserve. I found myself, analyzing how far I've come from the midst of darkness. My love for myself has increase and constantly amazed by my strength and diligence.

The last goal was accomplished right before Christmas. I received my dream job. I swear to you, when I received the phone call after the fourth interview, I felt like Will Smith at the end of Pursuit of Happyness. MAN, I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND HAD A LONG "THANK YOU JESUS MOMENT."

I entered the new year with breaking new ground for the future.

And when the job started, a reaccuring dream began. I dreamt that I was preparing for an Olympic race, I reassured myself that "I, the UNCONQUERABLE SOUL" was ready to finish first. When the race finally started, I blew everyone away, but my stamina kept me from keeping the top spot. My body crammed up, I began to cry and prayed for strength to at least finish the race.

Suddenly, I had the feeling that I should stop running because I would lose the race. Then another part of me kick in and said, "you didn't make all this effort to not finish." So yeah, I closed my eyes and struggled to finish. Struggled long and hard. Stuggled without an ounce of energy. And the crowd watching told me to open my eyes and I was on my last lap ahead of everyone and ended up winning the race.

This dream is what I'm living right now. I'm in this race and struggling to keep up. I'm on the go. Like the song says, "ain't no stoppin' us now, we on the move." But shyt... on the real, it's hard keeping at this pace and so I will be blogging about this struggle.

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